Sunday, June 28, 2009

Why am I not bawling right now?

I didn't sleep for longer than one hour at a time last night...and I only fell asleep three times. I am so tired. I am so tired. People keep laughing and saying wait till you have a kid it will happen every night...well I haven't slept more than four hours a night since the first week in June because of the intense pain. Sleeping medication does nothing but make me more tired and desperate for sleep...pain medication doesn't help, even the stuff prescribed by my doctor...at least if I was up with the baby I'd have a REASON and PURPOSE to wake up...because she needed me...not because I was in such intense pain that I spend two hours curled up on the floor. I usually don't use my blog to whine but I am soooo tired. SOOOOOOOOOOOO tired!and in a lot of pain right now...The worst part is...I'm a pretty emotional person and I can't even cry about it i'm so tired. I just want to curl up and cry...why does the paoin only happen when I'm lying down. Why can't I sleep standing up...ahhhhhhh

4 comments:

Bea said...

Nevermind love, this too will pass. It's the price you pay. I'm not laughing, I remember. :o)

Joy Salmon said...

you poor thing! hang in there. You are almost done with this phase!

Bree Johnson said...

ahh sweetie i heart you- it will be over in a jiffy-whine all you want!

Brad and Stephanie said...

Ha! That is exactly what I told people!!! I told them it is BS to say enjoy the sleep while you can and stock up. What crap! I felt worse and more fatigued when I couldn't sleep because I would rather be in labor right at that moment and have a reason for my not sleeping and pain. I am glad someone else has the same view. I appreciate your pain and you are valid in your feelings, But... I do hope you get some sleep soon :) Hang in there mommy (or mum as Ethan would say).