Sunday, June 28, 2009
Why am I not bawling right now?
I didn't sleep for longer than one hour at a time last night...and I only fell asleep three times. I am so tired. I am so tired. People keep laughing and saying wait till you have a kid it will happen every night...well I haven't slept more than four hours a night since the first week in June because of the intense pain. Sleeping medication does nothing but make me more tired and desperate for sleep...pain medication doesn't help, even the stuff prescribed by my doctor...at least if I was up with the baby I'd have a REASON and PURPOSE to wake up...because she needed me...not because I was in such intense pain that I spend two hours curled up on the floor. I usually don't use my blog to whine but I am soooo tired. SOOOOOOOOOOOO tired!and in a lot of pain right now...The worst part is...I'm a pretty emotional person and I can't even cry about it i'm so tired. I just want to curl up and cry...why does the paoin only happen when I'm lying down. Why can't I sleep standing up...ahhhhhhh
Posted by Melissa at 6:00 AM