Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Expect nothing, live frugally on surprise...

Recently I went to see the movie Dan in Real Life. At the end of the movie, Steve Carell is writing in his column about the plans we make in life and how the twists and turns take us places we don't expect and he says, "Instead of telling our young people to plan ahead, we should tell them to plan to be surprised." This really got me thinking about my own life and the plans that never materialize and I realize that even though my hasn't followed the perfect route that I dreamed up for myself there is someone infinitely wiser that is guiding me (surprising me).

I am so grateful for the surprises in my life. Five years ago, at seventeen I could have told you who I was going to marry, what I was going to major in, where I was going to live, and how much money I would be making. Oh how the world changes in just five years. With the introduction of Adam Turney into my life, so many surprises have twisted me around. Never in a million years would I have guessed that I would be living in Las Vegas. This alone has blessed my life in ways I am not sure I comprehend even now. The people who have touched my life and changed me for good, the blessings that I didn't know could be, the kindnesses we've been shown, it has been amazing.

I am amazed at how much Adam loves me. I didn't understand that someone could love me so completely because I'd never been given that love. I am also surprised at how much I can love him, and how close we've become. Its almost as if we are growing up together in love. I often think of moving down to Las Vegas, how my husband litter ally took me to the desert, with nobody but each other to cling to. I attribute a major part of our growth as a couple to the days when we feel especially lonely and vulnerable out here without our families. It has been an incredible part of our marriage.

I am overwhelmed at the out pour of blessings from a loving Heavenly Father who is watching over us. I have seen a surge of blessings come as we attend the temple every month. I see Adam balance work and school, and somehow I balance work and school and yet we still have ample time to be together. Speaking of school, I should go study for my Math assessment test tomorrow. I will surely be surprised if I get into the class that I want :)